My Frist Day In Turlock

So the beginning of my college experience did not go how i expected it to go. We had just got to turlock and my mother, my roommate, and i were inside the grocery outlet and everything seemed good until i got the phone call that made my the world come down all around me. I answered the phone, and in a broken and heart broken tone my sister asked to talked to my mom, i gave my mother the phone and no more than 5 minutes after i hear her scream out in agony,”she's dead, why lord why” she screams and cries as i take her outside to my father and that is when i am told that my grandmother has just passed away. With all of the emotional strength that i had i put on a straight face and comforted my mother as we left the outlet and proceeded to my new apartment. I can honestly say that was one of the hardest things that i have ever done staying calm when it seems like my whole world has started to fall around you. And to make matter worst i feel like shit because of me my mom is here and was not t there with the rest of the family. So finally we got all moved in and they left and i am left with this bittersweet feeling. Yesterday was my grandmother's funeral and burial and it hurts that i could not be there but i am going to keep my head up and stay focused, and through all of pain i have found a new drive so this one is for you mema i promise i am going to make you proud.